We're in the newspaper!
Oh goody... if our newspaper wasn't so lame, i might be excited...

http://www.theolympian.com/120/story/71247.html

Ya know wut's really confusing tho.
At State, I distinctly remember getting 1 gold in speech, 2 silvers in art and music and 3 bronzes in soc sci, econ and math. And my dad remembers me getting that too. But miraculously, I have 1 gold, 3 silvers, and 2 bronzes... so i think they screwed up and gave me an extra silver instead of bronze!! yes! score!.... either that or i have Terrrrrrrible memory... The other thing that amuses me is the newspaper says that i got 1 gold, 4 silvers, and 1 bronze! Yes! More Score!!! Yea, i'm almost definately sure that's wrong.
I love how inconsistent everything is. :D

Oh. and i have makeup on half my face. Cuz one of my mom's friends from China came over and she's an actress.... so my mom's like.... teach Zinnia how to be pretty... >.<
And so she put make up on half my face so i could see the difference.
The Eyelash curler kinda scared me... and it pinched me...
But yea. I looked kinda half-pretty..
Half my face looked really nice and the other half just looked really plain.

Oh yea, she also gave me a really pretty necklace! I <3 it.

So Geoffery Prozora commited suicide last sunday b/c of depression...
And...I totally agree with everythings Derawr said in her entry

He was in my Honors English class freshmen year with Riley and I remember him being really funny and just a really congenial guy in general. Albeit, he wasn't nearly the 'smartest' in class, he seemed like such an awesome person. For one of our projects, a book report, he composed a song about the book and taped it. He's was actually pretty good at guitar and singing. And... i remember he used to quote Austin Powers, which is like the movie he lives by and...
I feel like i remember lots about him, even though i haven't seen him for the past two years.
And it seems really relaly sad that he's just .....gone.... and will never be here again...
I mean, when i knew him, he was like....a really happy guy...atleast at school... and it really doesn't seem like him to go and do something like this...
but then again, 2 years have passed and i relaly don't know anyting about him.
I guess i just kinda can't believe HE would do this, and.... i'm sad.... and i think just the fact that i knew who he was... and now he's dead... bothers me....it kinda disturbs me... and ...
I don't know.... :(
Death is scary...
I'm not relaly afriad of dying...
But whenever someone i know dies....
It's makes me feel unnerved and like....maybe.. possibly that could be me, altho i could never commit suicide, cuz i'm too afriad of pain.... Pain scares me.
But i do feel depressed sometimes.... like today actually
I was really upsettened about my speech...
and really depressed during japn.... but work day in calc and funny sexual innuendos made me feel better...
And i wrote a mini emo speech about how much of a failur i am.
and how failing makes me feel.......

I also hate how.... i'm like the ANTITHESIS of a good writer...
It's sad really...
I'm really uncreative, I take forever to do things, I procrastinate on....everything, My brain doesnt not like to do syntactical things corrrectly at one in the morning, my writing is relaly simplistic and lame, and just.....really lacking in general.
I hate it. I hate writing. I'm SOOOO not a creative, artsy, creative person. THose things just don't work for me.

It's URGGGGGGHHH.

What time is it?
Time for Flava-Flav!
...sorry... that was written on my notebook....
But....just so you can see my terrible writing abilities.....
I'll include my terrible incoherent repetitive emo speech...thing....

Failure.
Such a strong word.
A strong feeling that is becoing a routine part of my life.
The constant tiredness, constant laziness, constant inabiliry to get anything done without spending infiniate hours of time.
Soooo much time spent wasted; not working; not being productive.
Why must my life be drowned in a dreary foggy cloud thats rains failure upon my stupid pathetic life.
Bad speeches.
Failed Physics tests.
Lack of Understanding.
These have plagues the last few weeks of my life. I'm suffocating in a stuffy room, overwhelmed by stress and unaheivable goals. there is a golden horizon of oppurtunity and winning and everyhting that is the anithiesis of fialure!....
BUT.
It's unacheivable.
The ropes of life and incompetence and unnattainable goals and wants pulls me back into an ocean of asphyxiating DEATH!!!!!

....yea
Most of my little things....don't make sense...like asphyxiating death....in an ocean.....that....would be more drowny....
But i wrote it in pen...
I didn't pay much attention in Japanese...
and now.....i have gatsby to read, physics worksheet to not understand, History to attempt to be helpful in, econ cram kit and art thingy to read for acadec, oh yea, and calc to finish... and it's 11:40pm...
GOODY!

More lack of sleep..

OMG. Tomorrow is JObies. which means...i have no weekend... No making up copious amounts of lost sleep! NO!!!!!
and then.....next friday is ACADEC STATE!!!!!!! which means!!!!! MORE NO SLEEEP!!!! NOO!!!!

...................................this sux.

Date:	2007-02-26 00:15
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	White and Nerdy..... -_-

I feel in a very quizzical mood right now.
So... yes

I suppose my quiz results make sense considering i have like 4 guy friends, 3 of which are in my physics class and all of which are Neeeeeeeerds.

What type of person do you attract? Your Result: You attract geeks! Your stunning intellect and love of sci-fi and video games allures the geeks like nothing else. Maybe it is the sparkle in your eye that makes them want to text you, who knows. Geeks make good partners, but tend to be arguementative. If you are a TRUE geek magnet, you will know if that was spelled correctly, and actually care. If it is a bad-boy/bad-girl you are seeking, you are barking up the wrong tree, unless they are just 'bad' behind a PS2 console.
You attract rednecks!
You attract Yuppies!
You attract models!
You attract unstable people!
You attract artsy people!
What type of person do you attract? Quizzes for THE GOOD OF MANKIND

Date:	2007-01-28 13:23
Subject:	Accents! of lack thereof
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired
Music:	.......dun dun dun......NOTHING!

I ain't Gotst No Ahksents...
I speaka teh Purrrfect Engrish!

What American accent do you have? Your Result: The Midland   "You have a Midland accent" is just another way of saying "you don't have an accent." You probably are from the Midland (Pennsylvania, southern Ohio, southern Indiana, southern Illinois, and Missouri) but then for all we know you could be from Florida or Charleston or one of those big southern cities like Atlanta or Dallas. You have a good voice for TV and radio.
The West
Boston
North Central
The Inland North
Philadelphia
The South
The Northeast
What American accent do you have? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

Urgh. Finals were evil. And I feel like a FAILURE at everything except for Chemistry and Physics.

Gurrrghhhhhle!!!

Date:	2007-01-22 19:52
Subject:	Seven Sins of Sinfulness
Security:	Public
Mood:	disappointed
Music:	Flogging molly

Greed:	High
Gluttony:	Medium
Wrath:	Low
Sloth:	Medium
Envy:	Medium
Lust:	Very Low
Pride:	Very High

The Seven Deadly Sins Quiz on 4degreez.com

Oooo. I'm greedy and Prideful.

Date:	2007-01-22 02:32
Subject:	Hell
Security:	Public
Mood:	complacent
Music:	born to shine

The Dante's Inferno Test has banished you to the Sixth Level of Hell - The City of Dis!
Here is how you matched up against all the levels:

Level	Score
Purgatory (Repenting Believers)	Very Low
Level 1 - Limbo (Virtuous Non-Believers)	Very Low
Level 2 (Lustful)	Low
Level 3 (Gluttonous)	Moderate
Level 4 (Prodigal and Avaricious)	High
Level 5 (Wrathful and Gloomy)	High
Level 6 - The City of Dis (Heretics)	Very High
Level 7 (Violent)	High
Level 8- the Malebolge (Fraudulent, Malicious, Panderers)	High
Level 9 - Cocytus (Treacherous)	Moderate

Take the Dante's Inferno Test

Ahaha. Hmm..... O well..

Date:	2007-01-22 00:46
Subject:	17 Years after the day of my birth.
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful
Music:	Hellogoodbye - Here in my arms

So my birthday was pretty uneventful except for our 2nd Acadec Party. I woke up at 8:30, took a shower, read saiyuki reload 3 and 4, read half the SuperQuiz Powerguide. Yup, stuff like that. Pretty uneventful.

But the Acadec Party was great. I like how we pretend we're going to study and then just hang out and play Halo and make stop animations. We made a sequel to Roflmaozedong. It's friggin' sweet.

http://s130.photobucket.com/albums/p265/daramh/?action=view¤t=MaoMovieness_0001.flv

Right now it's like 2:25am and i'm just starting history hmwk cuz i didn't want to do any of it earlier. My excuse: "It's my birthday..." So now i'm stuck doing at 2;30 in the morning. Fun stuff. And in addition, there's the SuperQuiz Practice Test tomorrow, So i should finish reading the powerguide and go over the cram kit. But first I must finish Histry. I'm actually not sure what's due cuz i have 2 papers and now i'm laying on my bed typing this instead of actually doing it.

I'm not sure what i did for the past 2 hours. I don't relaly remember doing anything significant. Geez, I need to get working or else I'll end up getting like 4 hours of sleep...again. And then i'll semi-fall asleep in calc again. agh.

But, Today's been a good day. And i've been filled with yummy food. So all's well in the life of Zinnia, the flower, who fights with flower power. Wooo. :)

Date:	2007-01-01 16:19
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	sick

Ya know what i find slightly amusing but mostly just annoying...?

I get to drop my dad off an work every morning. Cuz i need the car and he goes to work earlier.
So, basically every morning i get to drive on the highway to the Capitol and then drive back to OHS.

Funtastic!(sarcasm)

Yay!
So Acadec party was fun!
And our next one should be fun too!
I'm excited!
Weeeeeeeee!
This is really pointless and it's 2:18 in the morning
I should be sleeping. I really should.
But i also should be doing acadec, editing my cousin's college applications, doing my english homework, studying for phsyics. I want to be doing DDR but i think that might be loud and distracting and my parents will most likely come downstairs and yell at me, so that's not quite a good idea. eh heh heh. Ok
So the excitedness...
Yea.
It went away.

WATCH IT!!!!!!!!!
I will explain later but right now i have a head ache....


http://s130.photobucket.com/albums/p265/daramh/?action=view¤t=ROFLMAOZEDONG2.flv

Edit: So this is our production from our acadec party. It's oh so happyful. I really don't have much to explain. Um. la.

Date:	2006-12-20 12:16
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	sad
Music:	Bowling for Soup - Life after lisa

You know you're loved when as soon as you sign on to aim, other ppl sign off....

So. I'm driving to St. Peters to get a TB test cuz i'm going to volunteer there. And i realize that my mom took Charles to I have to drive the van(he has a name too but he's not as cool). But the problem is Charles has my Parking Pass which basiclaly lets me park anywhere. So i have to go and park in the stupid visitor parking area and walk all the way to the something something center which happens to be at the back of the hospital, which is like miles away from where i parked. So i go into the hospital with the intention of walking through it instead of taking a detour around the building, but of course there is no exit. So i walk through the surgery center place where all the old ppl there give me funny looks and exit somewhere random on the side of the building and end up having to walk miles anyways. So i finally get there and realize that they have parking here. And then i feel really incredibly stupid.

But on the bright side i got Exercise, which is good. becuz....it is...

Oh and the ppl at the hospital now know me as the volunteer who broke her ankle. =]
So now everyone who knows me is really nice to me. I feel loved.
This kinda reminds me of the House episode from yesterday with the lady who makes herself sick so she can see doctors.
except i didn't exactly break my ankle on purpose......

So yea....
and i don't like needles much. Actually i don't particularly dislike them, i just can't watch when ppl stab me with them... So now i have a lovely misquito bite looking thing on me ...and its kinda itchy....hopefully that's not a bad thing....:(




!!!

Date:	2006-12-19 12:40
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	cheerful

Session Start (flwrgirl121:Jonathan): Thu Dec 14 22:00:05 2006
[22:00] Jonathan: O_o
[22:00] Jonathan: I want a Bush bill!
[22:00] Jonathan: Woah~'
[22:00] Jonathan: That guy's bill is worth more than he is.
[22:02] Jonathan: um
[22:02] *** Auto-response sent to Jonathan: I am currently away from the computer.
[22:02] Jonathan: ?
[22:02] Jonathan: ROBOT VOICES!!!
[22:02] Jonathan: OMG!!!
[22:04] Jonathan: "MA! I am currently away from the computer."
[22:04] Jonathan: "Please leave me alone and fly away."
[22:05] Jonathan: "Be sure to add sprinkles."
[22:53] *** "Jonathan" signed off at Thu Dec 14 22:53:18 2006.
Session Close (Jonathan): Thu Dec 14 22:58:59 2006

I don't know why but this made me laugh.
I was busy making coooooooookies at the time. Coookies that haven't been eaten cuz of ....evil unschoolfulness.

Date:	2006-12-18 13:28
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	blah
Music:	The Clash - London Calling

AHA!! I'm ALIVE!!!!!
And i managed to survive a day without technology. Somehow. And my Internet is Back.
My power came back Saturday morning so thankfully i only had to live one day without.....anything.
Twas pretty boring. I kinda just read like 3 pages of the Economics Power Guide and Slept and did nothing and slept somemore and then took Julia shopping.

Yes. It was very uninteresting.

Oh Yea. And i'm SADDDDDDDD about not having school friday cuz that was like a free day for me. And i made Cookies.... WHY?????!?!??!!??!!?!?!!!?!?

Date:	2006-12-14 19:30
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	bouncy
Music:	French Affair - Do What You Like

YAY! Tomorrow is friday! I'm excited!
1st period: biography of santa claus
2: short quiz and Party!
3: Game Day. So either Clue or Pictionary!
4: Trivia Trivia Trivia
5: Watching movies about other physicsy stuff
6:....ew...chemistry

Soo.....basically we're not doing anything in any classes except chem....

LALALA!!!!
I'm gonna make Cookies!...it's going to be Exciting!....
and then i'm gonna Eat them!!!!!!
and YAY!!!!!!!!

Urgh.
I'm stupid. I hate how I'm always too apathetic to get anything done. I get home and I don't do anything except check my facebook and email and stuff. I want to do my homework but i just can't bring myself to do it. So i usually just spend a whole bunch of time doing nothing profound. Then it's like 9:00 and I start my homework, but never really do much. I usually end up staying up until 12 doing homework. Then I get tired and go to sleep, only to have to wake up at four to finish things. It's evil. Like now. I'm being quite hypocritical. I'm writing about how much i hate procrastinating and i'm doing in anyways. This sucks. Alot. And i want to study for Acadec so i do well....but that's always last on my list of things to do but i never really finish my lists so I never study. Gr.

Oh and to top it off, I've lost touch with some people and it's sad. Becuz they don't talk to me anymore. *sigh*.

But on the bright side. Acadec party ...sometime......but probably not until after xmax becuz ubernerd is uber busy. And our movie is going well! Yay!

and GREED is SHMEXXY!!!!

yay!

Today has been rather evil and I'm really hoping this week will be done and then.... FREEDOM!
But anyways, i got psat's back today and did pretty wellish, i suppose. CR 68, Math 80, and Writing 70, which is a grand total of 218. Yay 99% percentile. But the evil thing is last year one of my senior friends also got 218 which was one point under the cutoff for national merit semi-finalists....Merrr.... so i'm really really really hoping that people in WA are stupider this year. Please. But i do feel an overall sense of impending failure. *sigh*

Oh and on top of that tomorrow is an oh so evil English test over like EVERYTHING. I also have my random Jobie's Initiation thingy that I have been forced to do. Fun.... I get to wear a skirt, stand, be escorted around stand, and stand some more. Standing is always Uber fun...

Wednesday is going to be INCREDIBLY evil. I have a Calculus Test on Optomization, Maximization, and Minimization. I don't even understand this stuff yet. How am i possible going to be able to do this test. Gah. IMPENDING SENSE OF DOOM!

Thursday is also evil cuz we have a physics retest. So i get to attempt to do better than my last B-, which is actually kind of good. But....ewww.....tests....

Friday is happy tho, cuz in calc we have a game day and it's Trivia Trivia Trivia!!! in English. YAY! for Intended With Ships!!!

So...basically....please be friday please be friday please be friday!!!!

Besides that I'm recovering from my broken ankle and can now skip a few steps. Yay. I am sad about my now dismal DDR skills. I used to be able to do Heavy!! But now i've been reduced to doing standard until my ankle recovers from retardedness, i mean differently abledness, and then all will be well again in the world of DDR. Yes! My muscle in my right leg is really pathetic. Like when i jump, i don't land on my feet at the same time. It's quite sad.

Well i should probably study for my evil English test now...